Well today is Thursday and I’m attempting to help my husband with a lot of paperwork but the overwhelming weight of confusion that depression brings me it’s very frustrating. Today is one of those days I wanna crawl in bed and just watch TV and just not be bugged. But I’ve learned in the past that that does not help and it actually makes my depression worse. It doesn’t help that I have a nice new fibromyalgia , As I say that in are sarcastic tone, lol. Sometimes I wish I could just wake up and feel like when I was 30 years old and I felt such a bright future I felt so healthy add I had a bigger measure of happiness. I can honestly say that my greatest joy to focus on is 1st and foremost my husband. Sometimes I see what I put him through their hurts my heart so I can’t think of it because it spiral me down further. So I accept his supportivness because I know it’s a gesture of love. He is the embodiment of the wedding vows: for better or worse, for richer or poorer and the biggest one and sickness and and health.
So I decided to get on here and share what the day has been like it’s a quarter to one California time and the day is still not going my way. Getting ready to take a bubble bath in the hope that my body will feel better I not feel so much pain. My feet hurt so much. I don’t know it’s just a very irritating day to me. I can’t figure it out. I guess I have was called the Fibro Fog.
Have any of you felt this way? Well I gotta get on with my day. But I may be back with any update. Thanks for “hearing” me out.😭 Yvonne